As we know, if we read blog three, I went through a stellar break up. Since then, I've been praying nightly to God, whatever you call Him, Her, Them Whatever, I believe they're all the same. I pray that my ex and his parent are taken care of and well. I pray also for guidance for my path and the clarity to understand it's God's hand guiding me and not my own analytical mind as it often is, as I'm a planner. I gotta make sure I know where my life is supposed to be headed. Tuesday, April 1st I had an apiphany of where my romantic life will lead but not my living arrangements, I'll explain.

I live with my niece, her husband, two of their children, my oldest brother, my late sister's oldest and youngest sons. The brother, nephews, and I lived in one state, while my niece's family in another. My crew and I lived in horrid conditions, I may share that in another blog. I prayed every night for others and to be delivered out of that situation. Prayers answered, we had a house fire, lost everything but my people and dogs! My niece drove with her oldest halfway across the US to grab us to come live with them. Six months later, the house they were renting was being sold then demolished. None of my crew could afford to live on our own as we are all disabled, nor could we collectively afford a house big enough for all of us. We looked to other states and that's how we ended up where we are now. My niece misses her older children and grandbabies so, she plans on selling this house once it is paid off, and moving back home. My crew can't afford to go back home, as it is too expensive in our origin state! I wanted direction on where to move or am I stuck here with no friend, or family (except my small crew). I was expecting guidance on logistics, what I got was love advice, or my own ego telling me what's next in Annie's Love Antics. Either way, I'm pretty darn excited for the last portion of my journey and how I plan to spend it regarding this aspect of my life. 

Ready? I've never believed you needed a significant other to make one's life complete. I never understood, how people could be lonely or lament about not having love just because they didn't have a partner. I was always content on my own. I believed if you had friends, family, or loved yourself, you had love. I've been married, once, it was NEVER high on my to do list. Even as a child, I wouldn't be married, I would just have babies (dolls) and no husband but my parents were married my entire life until Dad passed, 32 years and 6 months. I've been in love, nothing beats the giddiness, the butterflies, spending all your time talking and spending every available moment together! I've had mind blowing sex, great sex, good sex, and bad sex. Most people enjoy sex, I know I did, and far too many people are obssessed with it. However, I'm at a point in time where I don't desire any of it. A partner would require more time than I'm willing to give, more energy than I'm willing to exude. Honestly, I prefer staying home with my dogs, crafting, reading, writing, etc If I do want to go out, I've taken myself to dinner, to the movies, etc I don't have to depend on or answer to anyone. I would say, "I should have thought of this years ago” but I wasn't here “years ago!“ 

So you tell me. Is God answering another prayer in another unexpected way or is Annie just different now? Either way, I'm pretty excited to see if this new outlook stays, changes anything, etc Never thought I'd be here but it feels right. Until the next one…